I am NOT afraid!!!

Today’s post is actually inspired by what I posted on my Facebook page today:

“For most of my life I lived in the bondage of FEAR! I was afraid that I was not good enough, that someone was better, or that I would fail. WELL, I have been freed from the chains of fear! It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks or if I fall flat on my face. I am finally free to do the things that I want and am called to do!!!”
 

Technically, that was self-explanatory, but it’s not “Chris-like” to be short, sweet, and to the point! 😉

For as long as I can remember, I have second guessed myself. I can remember back to the 2nd grade when I was picked on during recess because I had to wear my church coat to school, in the 4th grade when I was laughed at after singing in the Veteran’s Day assembly because my voice had vibrato, or all through elementary school when I was joked because I was chubby. That began the cycle of thinking twice before I did or said anything. I even second guessed myself when it came to things that I knew I was good at doing! Throughout my teen years and even into my adulthood, my fear grew larger and got stronger. I graduated from simply being afraid to do, to being afraid to do and having an excuse for myself and others why I wouldn’t do. I had become an enabler for my fear. That’s what happens with fear; if you don’t dismiss it, it will grow and take over. Eventually, my fear handicapped and paralyzed me. For every good idea that I had, I could immediately think of several reasons why I shouldn’t execute the idea. I began to settle for doing what I had to do instead of pursuing what I wanted to do.

“I’m not good enough.”

“There are lots of people trying to do this same thing.”

“What if I fail?”

“Someone else is better at this than me.”

Do any of these things sound familiar? I repeated that to myself too often…often enough to talk myself out of what I wanted to do. For example: I love to sing and have been gifted to do so. It was laid on my heart to begin recording music. It was prophesied to me that God’s healing flows when I sing and I am to share that. It was again prophesied that my music ministry would help increase the ministry of my church. Despite all of the positives, all I could think of was the dozens of talented singers in my area, especially those that could sing better than me. I had decided that I would dedicate myself to helping others produce their CDs, and I would sing background for others, and IF the door opened for me then I would walk through it. That’s nice, but that’s not good enough!!! While in a women’s conference at my church last weekend, something CLICKED! I realized that NOTHING that anyone could say could really stop me from succeeding. The only person that could stand in my way was ME! And besides, why should I not try? Even if I failed, I would still be better off than I would be if I had not tried at all.

THE MORAL OF THE STORY:

YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE AFRAID!!!

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.”

2 Timothy 1:7 [New Living Translation]

YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!!!

“For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.”                                                                                            Philippians 4:13 [New Living Translation]

I have made the decision that I WILL accomplish the goals that I have set for myself, and I will complete the assignments that God has given me to do. You can do it too! FEAR IS NOT STRONGER THAN YOUR FAITH! Just believe that you can do “it” ________________ [fill in the blank], and YOU CAN DO IT…. NoWE CAN DO IT!!! 🙂

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Chamekay Syntelle says:

    AGAIN!!! You are speaking to me!! AWESOME!!

  2. sabrina says:

    You have a wonderful voice I still remeber having to sing with you my freshman year at smIth and to this day when we all talk about high school and everybody’s like oh sabrina you can sang … I’m like no u know who can sing Christin

    1. cdrouson says:

      Good ole Smith days! Honey you had looooots of talent. And a strong voice. I miss those days!

  3. Pam says:

    Thank you chris for this blog. You were speaking to me. This blog was an add confirmation. Thanks again chris. Keep up the good work.I remember you and cedric when you guys where little kids. Yall use to come to our church when cedric would play for our youth choir at Grove Baptist church.Keep up the good work God has blessed you with.

    1. cdrouson says:

      Wow I remember our Sundays at Grove! We would come with Aunt Pinky (Garlena Hines).
      I’m so glad that you could be blessed my this. To God be the glory!

  4. chefrin says:

    God is amazing in all He does, I’ve been in the same place you have allowing so much fear to build up. It’s an amazing feeling to get the wind beneath your wings and allow yourself to soar. Keep going Christen……..Your wind is building and higher your flight is going to be.

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